Happy New Year... Did feel better in 2006. Sitch still in limbo but will strive to be composed.... and not let things get to me easily...
Big Al - Thanks for dropping by. I think what you said about " It is much easier to see what others should do even if we can't tell what to do ourselves. ". Alot of times, I felt that I could do that on others' sitch but not on mind. It's all the emotions that really stir up your mind, and you kinda get lost in your own sitch. And thanks for saying that I am amazing. Cheer up a lonely gal!!!
Kismet - My wonderful Wonder Woman Sister Goddess! Thanks for raising that glass of bubbly... Hopefully, the horoscope has some truth in it?? Read somewhere else that Librans would be spending money on their home this month, and to be careful not to go overboard...
Journalling... Before I start, I want to say that I do feel better... and brighter...
From my last post...I did feel really crap on Friday. I received a couple of texts from H on Friday evening asking if everything was okay. I didn't reply to both of them. The third one, he sounded irritated and texted something like (forgotten the exact words... H: I just wanna know if everything is ok. One day you are okay, and now you can't even reply to my text. Me: What happnes if things are NOT ok? Can you do anything? WIll you do anything? If you are so concerened, you can easily call and ask. I am very tired and I don't wanna end up in depression. I am sure my/your family will inform you if anything major happens to us. You just take care of yourself and hopefully someone will inform us if something is not ok on your side. Bye... H: Looks like you are in one of your moods again. I will call the house at 9 pm your time. I didn't text back.
I went back, shifted the home phone to the boys' room. I was feeling kind sh!tty and told the boys that I was tired and was gonna go to bed early, and to pick up the phone when it rings. Right on the dot, phone rang and boys spoke to him. I didn't hear their convo, was already in bed... 2 minutes later, my mobile beeped. It was H... H: Just spoke to the boys!!! What are you doing?? Why are you in bed so early?? I didn't reply his text.
Saturday (New Year's Eve)... Went for my Yoga class in the morning, then went out with my mom. Napped a bit and about 4.30 pm, got a text from H....nothing much, just telling me that he made numbers for 2005, and things seems to be improving at work, blah blah blah. I sent him back a short text Me: Good for u. Happy for u. Happy New Year! H: Happy new year to you too!!!Drinking session now...will send u text during new year. bye hottie
Didn't reply on this text. Then sent the boys over to my mom's for sleepover, went to buy some food (supposed to cook but was tooo lazy and napping.. ) to bring over to girlfriend's off. Hung around till the Countdown. Was a rather quiet countdown...but we did open a bottle of bubbly.
At about 11 pm, got another text from H. H: Happy New Year Hottie!!! Will talk to u tmrw...Love U. Me: Not new year yet. Countdown in one hour's time.
At about 1 am, got a call from H to give his wishes on the New year. Asked me where I was partying... I said "well, I won't exactly say I am partying, but I am out. Happy New Year!" When I ended the call, I saw that H had sent a text at 12.30 am, which I have not seen (missed it) " Happy New Year!!! Where r u counting down?? "
New Year's Day... WOke up at about 10 am. My mom came to get me about 10.45 am ...we were off for a FAMILY Karaoke session.... Was fun.. my sisters, bro-in-law, my parents, my boys..we sang and had fun. After that, went for yummy pancakes and Ice-cream!!! Noticed later that I had a text from H "Hi hottie...feeling very h@rny!!! Think must be something to do with missing your s**ks n your w*t st***y c**t. Have to say that u r one hot, h@rny chick. Can't wait to come home to f**k ur p**sy!! Nope...I didn't reply to this text too.... Too busy eating my pancakes and ice-cream!!! Later, I had some Hot Wheels fun with my boys and went out dinner with my parents again...
Monday (2nd Jan 2006) AM - Cleared out some of the boys' old toys and had more fun with the Hot Wheels set (trying to crack my head as to how to join all those different themed sets together. )... Then was off to have lunch with a girlfriend of mine. In the PM, saw that H had sent me two texts... H (8.11 am) : Just read your email. (The one I sent last week...can't really remember what I said) Anyway, still alive n back at work already. WIll call later. Country X is working day today. H (2.15 pm): Oi.... how come not a word from u??? Me (2.30 pm): Very bz. Phone not by my side. H: (2.50 pm): Ok...talk to u later then.
Thereafter, took the boys to "Mummy's Return" ...a kind of a "horror thingy" whereby the ppl dress up and try to scare you as you walk through the dark rooms. S5 was so scared that I had to carry him, and was still clinging to me after we exit...
Had dinner with my parents again. At about 7.30 pm, I texted H "From now on, if you wanna talk to the boys, please call by 8.30 pm. School starts tomorrow. We are home now, if you wanna call. Ta..." H called about 8.30 pm. I knew it was him so asked the boys to pick the phone up. I didn't speak to him.
This morning (Tuesday)... Just a call from H at 9.30 am. No long chats. He called to see how I was. Asked if S8 had trouble waking up blah blah, if I was at work.... I didn't have much to say, so kept the call rather short.
Oh well.... I guessed the positive is that he made the first contact of the day most days....but I really don't want to expect anything anymore... Countdown starts... 26 more days...
Cheer up a lonely gal!!!
) to bring over to girlfriend's off. Hung around till the Countdown. Was a rather quiet countdown...but we did open a bottle of bubbly. 
My mom came to get me about 10.45 am ...we were off for a FAMILY Karaoke session.... Was fun.. my sisters, bro-in-law, my parents, my boys..we sang and had fun. After that, went for yummy pancakes and Ice-cream!!! Noticed later that I had a text from H "Hi hottie...feeling very 
