Oh.....just want to journal that gave H a little keychain with the boys' faces engraved onto it. He openned his pressie before he came back and texted me "saw the keychain. Very nice. Gonna use it now"....but I didn't actually see if he was using it when he came back.
Also, think H felt "guilty" after our s@x session on Xmas day. Think that he felt that he was "unfaithful" to ow. LOL... But yet he couldn't stop himself with me?? Also, think he didn't want to stay in our house because he was guilty and that he was AFRAID that ow would find out. (Anyway, he did stay overnight in our house)....Think he told ow that we have "separated" since 4 months ago or longer!!! Gosh...how fun it would be if ow were to find out that I have been to Country X a couple of times and slept on HER bed, and that he has been back home to sleep next to me!!! ...I know I sound terrible...but am just sooooo yoyo-ing. Want to detach, but can't. Want to let go, but can't. Want to fight ow, but can't.... don't know.... just counting down I guessed... But then, gonna see H again in 2 week's time, at his sister's wedding...BETTER NOT expect anything....lest be disappointed again.
