To my fellow DBers...Sorry if I have not been posting in your threads...Feeling too YOYO-ish to be of any help. I think the more I say, the more I will get all of you confused. So, I will also zip my mouth and throw away the key for the time being....till I see some light at the end of the tunnel for me...
Oh...A girlfried told me this morning...that I should starting think about me, empowering myself as opposed to focussing on H. I think it's quite valid. She said " S, you should empower yourself and tell yourself that at the end of January, you want a H that is commited only to you. And that is what you want. What you want. Don't put the focus on H as to what he wants...you or ow etc." Sorry...don't put it too well. Basically, what do I want? NOT what H wants....
My mentor who has been encouraging me, urging me to fight for my M actually told me "S - by end-Jan, you would have given your H sufficient time to decide, and it would be time to move on". If it's not for my mentor's encouragement to perservere throughout these long long months, don't think that I could reach this stage. So, even my ever-so patient and understanding mentor feels that end-January is the right time to call it quits... No turning back...clock is ticking... Countdown to 2006...
