Just checking in. As I read through your most recent posts I noticed that you seem calmer. This is wonderful. It's also nice to see that you are getting angry with H as opposed to all your anger being focused on ow. This is healthy too. What H did/is doing is reprehensible so it's good to feel angry (in a controlled way). Helps keep all those other icky feelings away. Of course, holding on to the anger is not good so the time to let it go will come soon.
I'm glad that S5 is feeling better. Did they ever figure out what it was? Also, don't worry so much about what wiil happen with sons if your situation isn't resolved. As long as you are there as a strong, loving mother and H is still involved in their lives (even in a superficial way) they will be ok. Children are resilient.
