Hope you had a great week off! And the ski trip was fun.
Yeah Jung was a little wacked
I like wacked people well except Freud. Sorry that french frie I am oogling does not remind me of a erect penis in anyway shape or form. Now I do believe Frued would have enjoyed Toni Braxtons song Your making me high.
Alot of the symbols you speak of are that of tarot cards also.
by being responsive. Not reactive. But showing some response to his actions. positive and negative. You have already started recently
Confronting issues and being direct and saying I wont take it any more I am good with. All this you hurt me why would you want to hurt me stuff is a little overboard for me. I still cannot grasp being that emotional/ Or as you would say giving over control to show I am emotional. It just feels so unnatural to me. But I am trying. I sometimes feel like I am walking a thin line of faking it though. Which is not helpful
This is being vulnerable, while still maintaing your sense of dignity.
Wierd line of thought for me those two sentences together in that form. I guess I have always felt maintaning my dignity was from not being vulnerable.
Good save with the ---ahhh man --part there.
Only for you would I have put so much effort and shown the fact I was putting in the effort. Lol
Stick that in your pipe and smoke it
I did and just about choked on the words.
If a magician would not chase then I cannot be one I always chase what I want. And hmmm you don't trust me maybe why you always think I have secrets ahhhh?
Can I be a magician on the cusp of a warrior. I like the thought of being elusive and darring and stronge?
( I know-- that is EXACTLY what he would say too. whatever. )
Hmmm did I say it was a him? my bad
First. YOU Suck
Shhh thats a secret. Don't tell the board members that they will think if BF says it it must be true and all abandon me.
Your blond arent you? Not at the moment. Why did you ask?
Still going to the dentist
Yes and he is the devil!
This is just ridiclous amounts of independant, proving no need of H....
This has nothing to do with my H. He would never say I could not have anything. I wanted to paint the house and the paint was bought with his income. Which all money that comes in this house is mine to spend as I please. I just take no pleasure in buying things for myself with others money.
This goes far beyond a shirt this even goes to what I stand to inherit from my parents. I do not want it. I did not earn it my sisters can have it all for all I care. It is not mine. My grams who is right now in a nursing home and I am internally flipping out about that. My Aunt and them are already dissembling her house to sell it. My mom called and wanted to know what I wanted from the house. Some pics of me and grams and two plates that is it. I am the closest thing my grams every had to a child she helped raised me if anyone has any rights to things that are hers it is me and I know that in my heart but in my head it is still not mine and wronge she is not dead and some of them where not nice to her all throw the years. But I know they will just trash grams photo albums (so I stated I want them)and fight over the antiques so f it and them. When my gram dies I will tell them all what I think of them and there false tears.
Sorry guess that one has been brewing. But again if I did not earn it I really don't want it/ feel entitled to it.
You made no comment about taking the initiative to plan activities, adventures though.
If you read back into my orginal thread you would see I have issues with this. My H and his lack of input in our relationship/decisions. I have completely stepped back from this aspect. It takes us to much into the mother/child dynamic when I have to supply all his wants and dreams and then plan them out.
there is that dichotomy
I like that word and yes BF sent Chrissy back to the dictionary again.
I lost the beer googles years ago with the exception of a small relapse a little over a year ago I have not drank in years. Maybe thats what I need is to put those rosy colored beer googles on and all will be good!
Well going back to listen to 3 doors down song The Road I am on such a awesome song!
Night
By the way BF how about a update of whats going on in your head /heart in more then bits and spats here and there.
