Your posts about the tone in your HH and how it changes when H shows up reminds me of my first M. It is a sad and painful way to live. It eats away at you until you aren't "you" anymore. I was LD in that M. The once in a great while that I actually wanted sex, I wanted sex - it had nothing to do with my H and even less to do with EC. I don't wonder why you stay. I had my reasons too. I became ready to leave when I realized that I had become a little, tiny, fragment of myself and I couldn't even connect to who I really was or wanted to be anymore. Where are you in this? Can you be in this M and still be you? Are you sure?
I'm very concerned for you. I don't write much to you but I follow what is happening.
