If when they're older and not dependent on him, they want an R, I would welcome that.
I suspect the oldest won't as she already dislikes me, but the others may do, in particular DD3 who used to live with me until he forcably took her and she remembers everything so I might stand a chance for an intact R with her at some point.
I accept if they don't want to, though, their feelings may not be all that good towards me. It was partly why I wrote the book, so they could read why when they're older.
I am truly exhausted and unhappy and it's no way to live. I need to get my life back.
Anyway, to the update of my holiday. We had a great time. We ate out in a restaurant every night and I took DD4 to a themed 'Bob the Builder' kids Christmas party, where Bob came out and played party games with her and then they ate party food and had their photos taken with Bob. She LOVED this, you should have seen the look on her face.
I also took her to see Santa and I sat down by this fake fireplace (the room was done out like Santa's living room) and I thought I'd better move in case it was part of the display, and then Santa actually jumped out of the fireplace. It's a good job I moved else he'd have fallen on top of me, LOL.
He gave DD4 some chocolates. She loved that too.
She went trampolining and on these rides in a fairground and we went to a music concert where I drank beer. Oh, that was bliss!
We also went to the cinema to see 'Wallace and Gromit' - it's the first time I've been to the cinema since I split up! I was sitting there getting so excited about this kids film, thinking, I can't believe I'm at the movies. First time in years and first time I've ever taken DD4. She loved it. We ate ice creams.
We had a fab time and then I had to come home to this shite, never mind, eh?
She cried when I told her we were going home and said she wanted to stay forever, so I've decided to book to go there next year but over Christmas itself to save this bother.
