But what if the very thing that was supposed to cause your W pleasure, just caused her pain instead?
What if you couldn't touch her without her swelling up? What if her nerve endings were damaged so sometimes - and mericifully only sometimes - she couldn't physically feel sex? What if every time you slept together, she got pain afterwards and so you couldn't lie together and cuddle because she'd have to sit in a bath to ease it?
What if you had to see her in tears from pain because you'd just ML and know that the very way you express love, just hurts her? And know that theres no cure, this is for life.
What if she had to plaster herself in topical meds every day to 'control' symptoms so OS is out of the question (for her, at least), that if she uses any kind of soap, bubble bath, bio washing powder etc, she breaks out in bleeding sores?
Because that woman is me and I've had to go through all of that to have a good SL and I know from what Andy went through that it is really difficult to be the husband of a woman who has this. He had to watch me in pain knowing he caused it. We DID get through it, but I have seen him crying like a baby over it.
Anyone I went with would likely face a lot of these issues, and although there's more to me than sex and I know I have things to offer, is it really fair to a man to wait till he's in love with me and then expect him to live with it for the rest of his life?
Just because I have to work around it, doesn't mean anyone else should have to, in my opinion.
I didn't know I had it when I met Andy. I thought it was curable. They gave me the diagnosis at 18 years old and right then I gave him the option of leaving me, but he chose to stay. In fact, he was appalled that I'd suggested him taking up with a 'healthy' woman.
I know I could possibly find a partner, I'm just not sure it's fair to him.
