W called me this morning and told me that her boss was coming in town yada, yada, yada and she wanted to go with me to KC for the funeral but didn't think she could...I told her that I understood, no problem and I appreciate her looking in to it...got off the phone and was very hurt, but after talking it through with some people they kinda explained that her going was a super long shot and that we have too many issues that have not even been touched upon and for her to travel 700 miles in that atmosphere with needing to be supporting and loving in front of family and friends is asking too much...and I guess that when I step outside of my selfishness I can see that...i wouldn't want her to be fake and I think she really lamented over her decision (she said that she didn't sleeep at all last night)...she has already text me saying that "I'm truly sorry I can't be there but call me if you need me"... (nice thought of kindness)...so I just responded with like kindess..."thank you for ur thoughts and prayers"
