It's been a few days since my last post...I have been dark with W for 3 days...last time we spoke I told her that I wanted to wish her Happy New Year if I didn't talk to her before and here we are I have not talked to her...You know I called on Christmas Day and was not expecting a call back but got one...This time (New Years), I'm not texting or calling...staying total dark.
Now you asking youself, well of course you're supposed to go dark why is that a big deal? WEll it's a big deal because She is over at OM house tonight for New YEars, and I just found out my grandfather has very very bad cancer...Happy Friggin New Year! Let me tell you...I'm so proud of myself for controling my anger and looking at it not as a side show, like NYS suggests but an actual circus act consisting of clowns and fools.
But honestly I am upset, so I know that I have not totally detached yet...Is that the sign when you detach?
