I was all prepared for W to deny the JT for next week and prepared myself for the worst and she agreed to go to the therapy next week...whew...I am so emotionally drained...I can feel myself checking out and I want to let her know because I know once I check out and it really starts to sink in as what she has done to me PA, lieing etc, I will hard pressed to ever forgive...Is that where I'm supposed to be mentally? If so I'm just about there.
I asked W what do you want to get from the session...she said "I don't know"...really ambivolent...I ahve decide that IF she actually does show up for the appt I will be open but if I feel like she is conducting a charade, I will cut the cord, because I don't want to sit there and allow her to continue to demonize me and hurt me
