You're right...I did say I was seperated...I think I'm lonly and trying to mask the pain...but that is not an excuse...you know I prob have a deep down urge to to "get even" and I know that is not right either...I think I'm lost right now...today was rough...my maid told me that last week my W threw away a ripped picture away of our engagement night...don't know how it ripped...I assume she ripped it and threw it out. That crushed me.
Then I went by her new apt complex just to see the surroundings and neighborhood...I got so sad that she is willing to live there instead of our nice dream home...of course she has not stayed there since she moved out...interesting...She must hate me so much or she must really be in love.
