well W is still at OM house, so I had a date tonight and it felt great...It showed me many things...one that I still can have a life without W...not my choice but if I have to I will...and I think that it helps my mindset to not think of her so much...I feel bad for the OW that I was on a date with because I'm not totally there mentally...just trying to get a life...I think I'm clear with her though...W is supposed to go to joint C first week of Jan...we'll see if that comes true...hard to believe that she is staying at OM house every night but still might want Marriage C...we'll see...if I get any resistance I will prob cut the cord...too painful to drag on without commitment.
