I am so embarassed...I read so many posts on here and people are suffering many months and some years and here I am giving up after a month...but I just can't take the pain anymore...I know that sounds like I'm being weak and I know I am but I just feel that if I have the power to stop or at least ease the pain, I feel like I have to do it...I thought that I could "act" like we were divorced and allow the A to continue but I don't have it in me. Maybe this is a natural feeling that I'm feeling and all of you have gone through this same feeling but, I don't see me changing my mind.
Would love to have a success story that LRT worked by filing for D, but honestly I don't care. The hurt that would have to be overcome, she should have to seriously repent to even consider and that is just not her.
I know that by doing this, some of you are thinking be carful what you wish for, but what is the best that I can wish for...total reconciliation...a life of wondering if she is late coming home from work, is she cheating again? What kind of life is that? That is the best I can wish for? i think I'm selling myself short.
