Well..interesting couple of days...I went pscho last night and stalked the W and OM at his house..I just had to know for sure...They parked her car in the garage to keep me from doing drive by...but I'm pscho and put a gps on her car...OK...how many people are laughing at me...I know...I'm laughing as I'm writing this...Can you believe we are all so sick that we would consider taking someone back that we would have to do that? Maybe I'm just sick...Love is pretty funny though when you really look at it.

Well I was enraged and left a note..."I can't compete for your love anymore...blah, blah...I'm seeing my lawyer on Tue, call me if you want to discuss or get your own.
SHe called today and said do you want to get together...I said did you get my note...she said yes and she doesn't appreciate it (yea like she would like getting busted)...so we met, with me being prepared to divide assets.

We had a very good talk...one of the best in about 3 months...nothing about our relationship for future...but kinda in the past...we talked about OM...she says that he is a lot less than you can imagine...of couse I had to ask if they were intimate and she answered yes (in so many words)...but you know I was actually fine with that because I knew they had been intimate, but if she said no I knew she would be lieing and it was nice to hear the truth for a change...and I think that by the way I responded and she then also appreciated being to tell the truth...kinda weird huh? guess it's that thing called love again...
So she tells me she doesn't want a divorce but she wants her own space, meaning her own apt, not living out of a suitcase at GF house...I said I think that is a great idea...so she wants to come pack with MIL on Thur and move on Fri...wonder when she was going to tell me that...Heck, I'm even helping her move...also pretty weird huh?

Ok. HEre is the juice...I know you guys are going to blast me for this, but I ran it by my T today and she thought it could'nt hurt...I told W that I would go along with the the apt thing and not file for divorce if she would commit to see a "joint therapist for 5 consecutive weeks and at the end of the 5 weeks she would have to go to a marriage retreat in one of 5 different cities, she could choose what city. and she agreed!!!!!! She started tearing up...Don't know why...maybe she was thinking this guy is so wonderful he is still trying to save us...or she could have been thinking, this guy doesn't get it ...Now I did pose it more as that I wanted to do it for me so I could learn more about how I let this relationship get away from me and so I don't do it with my next relationship....I know smooth...but your saying still a psyco with a GPS...

I suggested that we consider this time a seperation and that we see other people and go from there...she said that she vasilates daily on if she wants to be married or not and when she vasilates it's never all one side or the other...so shes got no strong feeling one way or the other...she says that she feels numb...she's never really happy or sad...I'm thinking this poor girl is messed up...give her space...she needs it!

Well I've read enough the posts to know that this is the start of my roller coaster...I just got to play it cool.

So who thinks I'm psyco?