Quote: Frank, you do have an awesome C. You should be grateful for that. They're not all like that. You got a special one. Good for you.
Yeah, I know I do.
Whatever happens at least I know SHE has tried her best.
Checked W e-mail today - OM sent her an e-mail saying he missed her. She sent one yesterday saying she missed him. Something like 'My love, I didn't have time to talk to you about my counseling experience the other day...'. Guess she wanted to tell him more justifications for her leaving me and why he is her love. She still is in that emotional state with him. He didn't say 'love' or 'I love you' in his e-mail, just 'I miss you'. He is so strange, why does she feel this way? Why does HE FEEL THIS WAY? She's 3,000 miles away from him! Let it go [censored]!
It sucks. My friend says 'he is an a*hole, a loser, he has no idea what he is doing to your family, he has worse problems than you do, your W is hurt and using him to feel good, she is growing, she is confused, she tells you different things about her feeings every day, forget about him... blah blah'.
That's nice to hear but what I want to hear is SHE IS DONE WITH HIM. I guess I was crazy to think it would be so quick - 2 weeks since she saw him. Now I am wondering if he will visit her in February.
I guess I need to remember that it takes many weeks for change, not a couple weeks. I thought she was really moving in a different direction. She's been a lot more 'touchy - feely' with me the past 2 days. Putting her hands on my shoulders whn talking to me from the side, she even kissed me on the forehead to thank me for getting her car washed today and gave me a hug later for another reason. Then she goes and takes the time to e-mail other man this 'miss you' stuff.
It sure looked like a ton of baby steps but the 'my love' stuff hurts me to the core and makes all the baby steps seem fake. WILL SHE EVER STOP IT WITH HIM?
Guys, what shoud I be doing here? I know I hear others whose S are having an affair say how they tell OM/OW they love them, and tell US nothing like that but do baby steps to confuse us. Maybe nothing in our therapy will ever turn her back towards me. We'll just be 'great friends'.
I need a prayer guys, that he get's a small conscience and doesn't come in february, and he starts to fade away...
Well, at least I know it hasn't changed overnite. I was hoping. God I was hoping, but it's still the same. I don't know why they aren't talking on the phone much now, just E-mail and IM. Why did she throw away the plastic rose he gave her, and the sprig of holly she had on her computer monitor? Why?
