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I really messed up by letting myself get weak and depressed for so long. It sure seems like there is no way to repair the damage we created.


I've beaten myself up over this, too, b/c I think my post-partum depression four years ago was the beginning of the end: H just couldn't handle it. But you know what? That doesn't reflect on *us*, Frank, it reflects on *them*. No one *wants* to be depressed; it's not like it's a good time and a way to just "get attention." It's hell. You can't do anything about your brain chemistry, and if you feel things more deeply than other people, why is that a bad thing? It just means you're a caring person. I know that that isn't what a "real" man is "supposed" to be, but it's really nothing to be ashamed of. Depression is an illness. If she walked out on you b/c you had cancer, would you think that was okay?

Okay, I'll get off my mental health soapbox, now. You are not weak; you are strong and you will get through this no matter what happens. Please take care of yourself and do what you need to so that you don't fall into another depression. Will you recognize the signs if you are? That is why I'm laying low.

N.

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