Actually I just opened a fragrance store in my home town. Have been on the internet about 9 yrs but Dave and I had decided it was time to move my business out of the home so we could get our home back...he was going to move his business in the back office here...but then it all hit the fan and our friends opened up the dart store behind my business when he didn't come through. I had already helped him with the money to get started...okay enough of that...
How did I do it when they were around? It was like an out of body experience. I became this 3rd person. When we went out of town it was funny because she was all over him and he kept jumping up and was actually sitting between us both most of the time. It was too funny...and I knew that he was doing it to make me hurt that's what made it easier for me...so I was able to show that I wasn't hurting and then it made him angry...and then honestly I decided to start hanging out somewhere else...where now they have followed me to also...LOL!! This town ain't big enough for the both of us.
I did go online for a bit trying to date but both experiences were not very good and I took my profile down. Haven't started dating persay yet...but there is someone I have met that has kinda got me a bit interested...and only time will tell. In the meantime, I have my daughter to raise for 2 more years and a business to run and to build it up even more. So lots on my plate...and of course the running joke, if prince charming shows up on the grey horse...then great.
Don't rush into the dating honey...take as much time as you can getting to know yourself and GAL...you never know what will happen during the next year...you may find you two back together or that like me you have decided to move on from the R all together. We were not married legally so we didn't have the ties that you and your H had together. I think if we had been none of this would have happened, but then again with the depression and drinking who knows...my Therapist said it was just a matter of time before something happened...but as she said one day I would outgrow him...and I guess she was right.
Men are extremely jealous by nature. I remember when we were all down at the tourney...one of my friends happens to be the 6th top player in the country and had the hots for me. Not my type at all but he couldn't keep his hands or lips off of me the whole weekend. I finally said something to one of my MF that was there and I didn't realize Dave was behind me and he said YEAH I SAW HIM...he's got his hands all over YOUR ass...I just said yup...he knows we're not together anymore..so he's making his move big time I guess...that was that...but he noticed...
And I am sure your H is noticing too...it's cake eating honey at it's finest...he wants to do what he wants to do and gives you crumbs to hang on and sees you so that you will hang on until he decides what HE wants...you just get to enjoy the crumbs that he throws you...and you make the best of it when you have his attention honey...show him what he is missing by not being with you...make yourself as beautiful as possible and not so easily accessible.
