"Actually that conversation was a bit interesting...I did say a few things. Like, "now you know what I mean when I've said to you before, you don't want to see me really angry" His response was "yeah, but I also know that it takes an awful lot for you to blow like that." I also said something to the effect of "I said a lot of things yesterday and I know I was blunt about it." His response was "yes, you were very blunt....but I deserved every word you said.""
It does sound like he is taking all this to heart, and not just acting placating, but the proof will be in the pudding as they say.
"Another thing that really makes me feel like what I said hit home to him is this.....in the wee hours of the morning I heard him crying, something I've never heard him do (unless watching a sappy movie or tv show)."
D@mn, now I'm starting to empathize with him a lot. I know exactly how he is feeling. He has done something he would give his right arm if he could take back, but he can't. He feels like he has really messed things up and may not know exactly how to get out of it and back to a sense of normalcy. The fact that things seemed to be going well recently just enhances the anguish. I've had many a "wee hour of the morning" session with myself, my anguish, and my guilt. One thing you may want to file away in the back of your mind is try to make sure he doesn't go overboard with guilt, like I tend to do. He's not the same person as me for sure, but all of us have it in us to beat ourselves up WAAAAY too much and feel excessive guilt. That guilt is worse than useless because it leaves us feeling trapped with no way out, and thus prevents us from taking the steps we need to take to solve the problem. KWIM?
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
