Had a brief talk with H last night about the other day, well...actually he did the talking...I didn't say much. He told me that he deserved absolutely everything I said to him, he had been thinking about what I'd said and not one thing I said was untrue....he really had it coming. I don't know right now if this was said out of honesty, or if he was saying it trying to placate me and smooth things over.
What I did say to him is that I appreciated that he said that, but that right now because I'm so hurt I'm having to fight against myself because right now all I really want to do is get as far away from him as possible.
I know we will get through this, but right now I have to force myself to even stay in the same room with him.
