Actually I don't have doubts that this would increase my EC with my H...I know it would. The doubts I have are that he'd actually follow-through with the assignment, which are spot-on.
Since our one encounter, which was quite nice....he's made no comment, no suggestion...acted as if the assignment doesn't even exist. I have brought "sex" up a few times, just kind of in general not as discussion....just letting him know I've thought of different things I'd like to do to him, doesn't revv his engines at all (or at least he doesn't let me know that it does.)...and now, naturally....we've managed to do it once and that time o the month arrives for me, which means.....if anything else is going to happen before our next C appt. it's up to me....completely. OH JOY!!! Not terribly thrilled about that.
I'm not so much upset that this means I will have to do things to him, that won't include actual intercourse....that's fine, that doesn't bother me at all...and in some ways I can see the benefit to it. What bothers me is that now, because he knows it's that time....he will sit back and do nothing. As far as he's concerned, that's his "get of jail free card" for us not being able to do what's been assigned. I know this man very well, I can almost tell you EXACTLY what he'll tell our MC. "Well, we were really busy, I had to take care of xyz on our property, things at work have been really hectic for both of us (I hate it when he speaks for me), and then it was that time of the month for her (I know he'll say it that way and make it sound like it was that time of the month all 2-weeks for me.)"
I don't know this for sure, but I do plan on asking him about this....but I feel like he thinks we should be able to ML once and those warm fuzzy feelings for me should just come flooding back. It just doesn't work that way for me....because right now I don't trust when I'll get that physical contact again from him, without me having to swallow my pride once again and force these arms of mine that turn into lead to initiate.....again.
Sorry to sound like such a downer guys....just feeling frustrated right now. I haven't received one real kiss from my H since she told him to french kiss me outside of her office, and now I'm just discouraged that he's made so very little effort to follow up with her frequency assignment too. I truly didn't expect he would follow through....but I hoped that we could ML at least twice within a 2-wk period, considering she was shooting for us having done it 6x (3 each week).
I do believe I'm going to have to get less nice about this, and I really hate that....it's just not my nature. I am at heart a conflict avoider....but this just isn't going to improve without it, and since I'm always the one to have to bring these things up...oh joy! Is this ever going to be fun!!
Not terribly thrilled about that.
