Just journaling again ... my last thread was locked....again.
Nope, no nookie last night. Wish I could say I was suprised...or even disappointed, but I wasn't. I had a gut feeling he wouldn't go through with 2 nights in a row, much less three, but had to give it a shot first.
I did bring it up to him last night....because to be honest, I truly couldn't remember if our MC said 3x in a row, or 3x in a week. I think it was in a row, but....I'm willing to simply try 3x in one week. Perhaps I convinced myself of that last night because "I" was simply too tired myself lol. However, when I did ask him about it he said "well if it's 3x in a row that ain't happening, I'm way too tired!"....yet he wasn't too tired to stay awake watching tv in bed next to me, interesting.
I'll admit it, the way he responded to me did rub me the wrong way....but I was VERY tired myself, I would have gone through with it though had he been willing. I've decided now though since the "in a row" thingie is shot that I'm going to shoot for 3x in one week, approx. every other day. Even that is much more frequent than he's used to...or than we've ever done. I really suspect that the 3x thing she's assigned makes him feel very pressured, very on the spot to HAVE TO do this, knowing him that's definitely not appealing to him. The 1st night was fine, that was easy for him....because we hadn't done anything in sooooo long, but now he knows he has to do this again soon, and that's pressure.
I could even tell he was trying to do an AOS in order to feel like he'd earned the night off with a good deed. He'd stopped on his way home to do some shopping he knew I would have to do today (in the snow possibly) so I wouldn't have to do it and freeze my butt off....that's the kind of guy he is (he is very thoughtful that way.)
So between the facts that yes, I was exhausted myself, he had made a gesture to show me he loves me by doing that shopping for me, and the fact that I know without a shadow of a doubt he's feeling seriously pressured by this assignment I'm willing to back the pressure off a bit by not expecting it 3x in a row. I'm not going to back it off completely though.....that would be shooting myself in the foot (instead of the toe).
I'm working on getting myself in that sex frame of mind that I need to be in for tonight in order to initiate and knock his socks off. I do truly believe that I'm going to have to do that this time (initiate that is) in order for it to happen twice in a short period of time.....I might even have to be willing to do it the 3rd. I'll do it though, if that's what it takes.
