X-mas shopping got postponed till the weekend but I think that now I can safely say that I'm done shopping. Yes the kids and I had lots of fun. Lots of laughing. They were a big help finding gift ideas for W. I'm not getting her anything but the kids have to give her something (even though D9 is a little hesitant).
Sounds like Vegas isn't all it was cracked up to be for your W.
W flew back Saturday night, I think. She came to town Sunday and gave the kids some gifts she had bought them during her trip. A shirt and some jewelry made everything all right with D9 again. W told D9 that Vegas was boring in the winter. Too cold to swim and the roller coasters weren't running either. Said she won $19. Wow big spender.
Update (or my interactions with W over the weekend)...
Saturday morning (8am) I was calculating my schedule so I could get my required work time and avoid working on X-mas or X-mas Eve. Due to my unexpectedly having the kids during W's "vacation" it was going to be tough to get my time in at work. D9 and I each have Dr. appointments and I was hoping to play Santa at S6's daycare party. I had no idea what (if any) help I would get from W on kid logistics this week so I called her (woke her since I used D9's phone cuz she'd answer a call from D9's number). Briefly explained my perdicament and she mummbled that her schedule was going to be normal for the week. She followed with a "sorry" cuz she knew she'd left me high and dry. I've reluctantly canceled being Santa for S6's daycare. Just not enough hours in the week. Not too good for my PMA.
Lets see...I also got to hear from D9 about her 2 or 3 calls with W from Vegas. I could tell from listening to D9's side of the convo on late Friday night that W had enjoyed a few drinks. D9 got annoyed at answering the same questions over and over. D9 asked me what was wrong with mom? Had she lost her mind? I blamed it on a bad cell connection. On Saturday D9 informed me that W was stopping by on Sunday. News to me.
About 2 o'clock Sunday afternoon W arrived at the house. We were all positive toward her and she was obviously relieved. W said her plan was to wrap the kid's gifts but she failed to account for the fact that the kids were around. WTF?? Then I think she attempted to take the kids shopping for their gifts to me. D9 appeared next me asking me subtle questions like "what's your favorite movie?", "do you need shirts or sweatshirts?", "what kinds of CD's would you like?". For somebody that claims to "know" me, W has no clue what to buy me.
We ended up all going out together to get a couple last minute gifts for the daycare lady. Then we ate supper at "Noodles". W and I aren't too excited about that place but D9 wanted to try it. As is par, W didn't like what she had ordered. We finished the evening with a drive around the neighborhood looking at light decorations at W's request.
We got home and started the kids on their bedtime prep. W hugged and kissed the kids, gathered her stuff and said I'll see you tomorrow (normal work schedule for her). She loitered around the kitchen telling me good-bye. Thanked me for the nice drive and supper, she had a good time, no hug.
After she left and I got the kids to bed, I found myself running her good-bye throught my mind. Being a newby at introspection and vibe sensing, I wondered why I felt so good about what went on during the day. I came to the conclusion that I can tell that she still wants me. She thinks I'm furious at her over the whole sitch, and she can't help herself from still wanting an R with me. When she was thanking me I was looking (the whole time) at her blue-grey eyes (they look like the clouds of an approaching winter storm or spring t-storm), I know she was fighting off giving me a hug. It wouldn't take much to convince me that I could have kissed her. I've gotten that vibe in the recent past during the approach to hugs. For the first time I feel like I could pull off the confident "I know that you want me" attitude that blackfoot talks about. I feel in tune with her and I can see what she wants. It's just a little delayed but I know what to look for now. This is pretty cool and scary.
I could be totally wrong but what have I got to lose. I could totally blow this thing but I've gone through this in my head so many times that I know I can do it. I just need to recognize the signs and moments, then react. Last night it made such perfect sense that I couldn't sleep. Like the night before a big game.
