Slipped a little this weekend on GAL. The weather wasn't very good so it contributed some to poor GAL and thus a little down PMA.
Exchanged the kids w/ W on Firday PM. Something about the kids moving from one vehicle to another with a couple bags at a gas station in a dinky nowhere town that seems wrong. The kids don't seem to mind so why should it bother me? Although it did bother S6 (a little crying) when he found out he was going to spend a few days at W's house. Says "it's boring".
Did very little Friday PM thru Saturday.
Sunday I went to my mom's house to help put up her X-mas decorations. I called W to see if the kids could come help. (W's house is on the way to mom's house.) X-mas decorating is not as much fun without kids. I wasn't expecting them to be able to b/c they had been overnighting at SIL's house all weekend with W. They were back at W's but S6 has been asking to go bowling for weeks so W was going to try to find an alley that was open and/or get a tree. The kids were more into doing that so I agreed to let them skip decorating at grandma's. When I arrived at grandma's W called and no bowling available anywhere. So we arranged a kid swap so they could decorate after all.
We met at a gas station halfway between us in the middle of nowhere. Picture the scene in Fargo when Steve Buscemi is burying the money in the snow. As far as you can see there's nothing but snow. Now imagine a gas station there. That's where we met to swap the kids. It was cold and windy, some snow falling, surrounded by empty corn and bean fields all the way to the horizon, and there's my kids climbing into my truck. Next time I'm going all the way to W's to get the kids.
I had to wait a few minutes for W and the kids to get there. I was trying to decode my thoughts while I waited. Was I bitter toward W for causing us to have to swap the kids like this? Was I glad that W wasn't coming to help decorate so I wouldn't have to deal with her being around me and my family? Was I sad because she didn't ask to help decorate, meaning she didn't want to be around me? Was I resentful that I don't have much money to buy gifts this year now that I'm making the house payment on my own along with car & health insurance? Tried to figure out what my DB family would be saying to all those questions.
W and the kids finally showed up. After a quick wave back to W, I grabbed the kid's gear and loaded it into the truck. The kids gave me quick hugs as they darted past me for the warmth of the truck. W came around to kiss the kids. Wow did she look hot! I was both turned on and pi$$ed off. She had some new tight jeans, hot looking boots, sexy new sunglasses, and her long hair was a little messed up. Schwinggg! I was peeved though, because I've needed to buy new clothes for months and don't have the extra bucks to do it. Right away W says to me, "You look good in that coat" as she's brushing the snow off of it (I got a sweet black leather jacket from my mom for my b-day). I zipped my lip from saying anything about her new duds b/c it would be nothing but negative. Then her comment on my coat erased any anger I had. (I'm putty in her hands ) We exchanged pleasantries and she gives me a big hug. W says a final goodbye to the kids as I'm walking around to get in my truck. I looked at her and she was looking at me with a half smile on her face. I told her that her hair looked great today and she said "You really think so? Thank you". Off we drove.
I try to detach and she cranks me back in. Son-of-a....! I almost dislike her because of her power over me. Yeah I know the power is all in my head (actually both heads ).
Thank you to all that replied to my X-mas card question. Would I be crazy for talking it over with W before I send any out? For all I know she's already sent a bunch out. What would it look like if some got two? Did she sign them from all of us or just her, just her and the kids? Probably makes no difference but for some reason I don't want to surprise her on this one.
I wasn't expecting them to be able to b/c they had been overnighting at SIL's house all weekend with W. They were back at W's but S6 has been asking to go bowling for weeks so W was going to try to find an alley that was open and/or get a tree. The kids were more into doing that so I agreed to let them skip decorating at grandma's. When I arrived at grandma's W called and no bowling available anywhere. So we arranged a kid swap so they could decorate after all.
) We exchanged pleasantries and she gives me a big hug. W says a final goodbye to the kids as I'm walking around to get in my truck. I looked at her and she was looking at me with a half smile on her face. I told her that her hair looked great today and she said "You really think so? Thank you". Off we drove.
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