Hi Honeypot, it so nice to talk to you! You know, you raise a very valid point. I probably would have had a better response had I called him on his nasty comment. I reacted so emotionally, though, I couldnt think of a comeback, or even think of one, all I thought of was to leave. So obviously getting a grip on my emotions and drawing a boundary would probably be helpful. at least worth trying as a 180. I do remember a time probably 4 -5 months ago when he said something condescending and I really snapped at him that I wouldnt tolerate that. and he has this shocked look on his face and apologized and has been better in that way since (dont' recall what it was now) and then I should have used a much calmer tone. I guess when I let go, I have trouble not being emotional.
I dunno about the weekend, not sure if it was a bust or boom. Actually H did say last night that he enjoyed it and that it helped him, but he was so withdrawn, I'm not quite sure.
I'll say one thing though, the porno movie was NOT the better part of it....H and I seem to agree on that. I found nothing at all enjoyable about it. A funny thing though, when we went to the sporting goods store, I looked at some cool running shoes. H commented about "just think, when you lose weight (god I hate him saying that) you can run around in those cute shoes"...In the porno movie, one gal had these really high platforms with huge heels and they were gold colored. I was fascinated by them. When H said that, I said "shoes? you mean like the ones in the movie?" and he said "what shoes in the movie? I wasnt looking at shoes" and he truly never even noticed them. Guess the book title is right huh? (men are from mars, women are from venus).
I gotta run, guess I'll see how he does this evening, I havent responded to his email that he sent about 2. just giving him some space, I dont' know how he will react. Sometimes he's really upset by that, sometimes he comes home and gives me a big smacker of a kiss. I'd prefer the later, but then, no expectations, right?
