I remembered something I was going to post that had slipped my mind; now I feel a bit anxious about it:
Tuesday I was home sick with a sinus infection. H was evidently having a slow day, was lonely and called me at home to talk. we talked for 45 minutes, which is a 1st in our marriage I believe. He used to call/email monster when he got lonely, he even told me that. Guess I've kinda screwed up, because at least 2X in the past when I've been home, he has called, and I didnt pick up the phone. knew it was him, trying to be "distant"....anyway, in our convo. he told me this.
And he said he "told her I love you". and here's the part that feels kinda scary tonight: evidently monster commented once that h would "never leave until (unless? could have been the word used)she died". H said he had agreed, he would never leave. I remember my mother telling me over a year ago during one of their many dramatic "break-ups" to watch my back. Tonight I find myself thinking "maybe mother was right".

The woman is a bigger nut case than anyone I've ever known.


been around awhile!