Ok, maybe I didnt permanently do as much damage as I feared last weekend.
When I got out of my meeting a bit ago, i had this email from H waiting:
Quote: Hey sweet heart! I sure love you!! I hope you are having a good day, so far I’ve been busy and P is dumping insurance authorization after insurance authorization on me to do before January 1 st, b---h!! I guess working at least for a while on Thursday will need to happen, but the rest of the vacation is mine!!! It will be nice to have some time together! I sure love you and your naked holdits at night. Your D
(I guess my 180 of going to bed nude instead of in flannel granny gowns was the way to go! )
I responded in kind, and got this one back:
Quote: I love you too!! Actually, I am impressed with how much closer we have gotten over the course of the past two years. Yep, I’m so looking forward to a Christmas that we can all enjoy, I sure apologize for making last Christmas miserable for you and S13, this year S13 and I will have to do some extra special things, hunting, cutting wood or maybe sledding. You and I need to do something special as well, hum we’ll have to think about just what we want to do, maybe go over to the K. House for a meal? I shouldn’t have to work too long on Thursday, but I am going to go over to (out of town office) as I don’t want to be here with Monster, the further away from her the better!!! Your D
The last part Makes me wonder if he's been in contact with her today, but if he has, it obviously hasnt been real rewarding.
Actually, the first part:
Quote: I love you too!! Actually, I am impressed with how much closer we have gotten over the course of the past two years. Yep, I’m so looking forward to a Christmas that we can all enjoy, I sure apologize for making last Christmas miserable
is a HUGE, HUGE tribute to DBing and it's effectiveness. I started down this rocky, winding road almost exactly 2 years ago (12/11/03) and that guy was GONE already in his mind, his body just hadnt followed him out the door yet. In spite of my ongoing worries and anxieties, it is truly miraculous that we are where we are today. I would have never thought it possible. Things looked SO bleak at times. and now.....
In regards to my anxieties, H commented this weekend that he loves me, and said "I don't know why you can't believe that"...so, he is trying, I just am still struggling some, the deceptions were so HUGE before.
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