Would you believe? I serve as a departmental representative on an employee/managment committee at work, kind of like a "student council" type of thing. Guess who is likely also going to be on the committee this next year because of the expiring term of the current rep from her dept. and the small # of people eligible for it?????? yep, that's right. monster. I considered freaking out. I considered saying they'll have to find another rep from my dept. if she's on it. I considered all kinds of things. Then I decided "nahhhhh, she's not worth the trouble"...I'm kind of all most guessing she will refuse to participate....so let her look bad, not me. and if she DOES participate, I think I'll sit right next to her and smile. or better yet across the table and smile.
I had several emails from H today, and they seemed to become a little warmer, kind of weird and hard to describe, in the last one I sent, I asked if I could tell him again I loved him without being obnoxious, and he emailed back "you sure can! I love you too!", plus some other tidbits, including telling me he'd stop by to say hi before he went home.
He did stop by, and we visited for a few minutes. And this is odd....he was much much warmer than he has been the last couple of weeks. Not sure what to think, guess i'll try not to think to hard. but, we were standing face to face talking in my office (alone) and I reached inside his jacket (it was open) and hugged him and kissed him, and told him I'd been looking forward to hugging him all day and that I loved him a lot. He actually hugged and kissed back. Usually at work he's in a rush to get going....he actually kissed me and looked in my eyes and smiled...I said "what?" and he said "It's just so nice to have some one glad to see me" ???????? I got kind of teary, said I look forward to seeing him and being with him all the time, that I'm thankful we've gotten to where we are and that he is with me. He said "you don't need to thank me. You are the one who has shown me day in and day out that I am the love of your life and that you are the one who truly does love me". We talked a bit more, and he said " you need to tell me what you want for christmas"...I just smiled at him....this time he said "what" and I told him "I have you". He said "yes, you do, but I still need some ideas"...I mentioned that either last christmas or the one before when he'd asked what I wanted I had said "you"...and he said "well see, you got the present you wanted all those years", but said he didnt remember me saying that, and looked like he was trying to recall. I remember at the time he told me I was being "pushy" to say that...and I mentioned that (probably shouldnt have); he didnt remember telling me that, but said "well, that was in the middle of everything"...
It is kind of weird that he seems suddenly so much warmer. I can't help but wonder if monster was trying to stir things up again, because that has been the way things have worked before when she was. Don't know....and of course now the weekend is upon us, and we'll see about the paperwork stuff. I do believe his warmth is sincere though, somehow it's "different" than when he's "faking". Again I'm sure that makes no sense, but it is.
S13's best friends parents are divorcing we just found out. S is really shook up and shocked, and hasnt been able to reach his friend by phone (friend changed schools)...so that is really hard for him, and he commented that he imagines his friend is really struggling. I'm sure he is. I saw the dad and the friends 2 sisters in the store just about the weekend before he filed. I keep thinking about those kids. the dad had such a weird look on his face when I talked to him, I'm sure he was about to tell them about it. We'd only known these folks maybe three years, and I always had a sense the mom was hiding something, H did too. I'll bet you anything she was haveing an A. I can just feel it in my bones. sigh. I feel so sorry for the kids.
D and SIL are living at our house, I hope short-term, but they are stuck in a lease with an unscrupulous property management company that is dragging their feet on the paperwork that should have been completed 2 months ago for subleasing, and they cant afford to pay for 2 places on their miniscule starting salaries. I suggested this evening the contact their attorney again, even if it costs them more. The management company actually has a district attorney filing charges against them and some other folks working on a class action suit, so it is not just the kids overreacting. From what they say, the company actually was extorting money from them, saying when they were in the office that something would cost them more money and did they have it with them then, and it was never written into the lease. There is actually a subleaser wanting the place this week who would more than exceed financial qualifications and they are dragging their feet on the paper work, I wonder if they arent afraid to lease to him because he's not a poor struggling kid startiing out and would probably take them to the ground if they pull the stuff on him they seem to. Ok, there's my vent for tonight, for once it's not about h or monster.
It's kind of fun to have the kids back, they sit at the dinner table and laugh at night, and D wanted me to meet her for lunch today...couldnt manage today, but hopefully next week. That's nice. be nicer if they get there own place nearby so the family room isnt piled high with their stuff....soon, hopefully.
i'm sure hoping H is as warm when I get home this evening as he was earlier.
