I know I need to keep working on my anxiety, it is kinda weird, I go along great for quite a while and think I have it licked, then some little thing happens and it sneaks up and bites me in the rear again!
I also know that in reality I have no control over what H does or doesnt chose to do, so there is really nothing for me to be anxious about (I'm sure that makes no sense).
It just seems like "stuff" is so easily stirred up, probably because the memories of such heartbreaking things are just barely below the surface. it seems to be taking a long time to get past them, but in reality it hasnt been that long.
I'm sure it seems from my posts that we talk about monster all the time, but in actuality days go by without either of us mentioning her; it's just hard not to have her come up sometimes when we all work in such close proximity. oh yeah, I'll have to post about that in a minute.
I do feel like I can just tell H I don't want to talk about her anymore...he would, I believe, try to respect that, but I am hesitant to shut it off completely yet. not sure why. Other wise, I think I'm probably better off to discreetly direct the discussion to other topics when it veers towards her. And, as Mollie said, not to keep reminding him of her!
