I did check H's schedule. He is almost completely booked, every hour this week. Far different from when I would check it a year and 1/2 ago, when he'd be pi--ing and moaning about how overscheduled he was, and have 1/2 days empty, even entire days.
I asked him what he meant by the "between 2 worlds" comment...I'm pretty dense this morning. He is pretty angry with me right now, I read Ellies reply on someone elses thread about anger being guilt turned outward...maybe that also applies here. got this response from H:
"What I’m saying is I don’t want to have things go back to the way they were with me having the affair and being at home. That wasn’t something I wanted to get back into. I too am tired, I forwarded Tuesday and Wednesday’s p-note list, I haven’t even got Thursday’s yet and so far everyone has come today. If I don’t get that stuff from last week done it will be reported to (supervisor) and I’m in trouble. I have new pt's paperwork to do from Thursday and another scheduled for today. (co-worker) isn’t coming in so I’m getting stuck with an urgent case out for the 8th. I’m just saying this doesn’t happen all the time but I by God need to get caught up and I just might have to work on Saturday to do it, okay? You are so over focused on me and the past you got to understand this can and will happen every once in a while so stop the damn fits, please! Next one’s here so I've got to go."
I sent this reply: "I understand work piling up and needing to get it caught up. always did, and got stung real hard because I did. not up for anymore stings is all. What comes across is that you don't like being stuck in the middle, not that you are happy with your choice."
I havent heard back, and I don't intend to reply to him if he emails unless it's a really sweet one. I guess I'm like Yo-Yo, just too tired to deal with this crap, yet it's impossible not to think about it when it smacks you in the face all the time.
I don't suppose I should have sent the email I did, but i just have no patience to put up with his crap after his response to my efforts.
