H2H - I'm definitely feeling buoyed by your wonderful affirmation Meeting up at the end of January sounds wonderful. In the meantime, let's close off 2005 in style. I was looking at my list of things that got done, and wow, what a difference a change in attitude makes. Here is something TJ posted on Erik's thread, that kept playing in my mind, it is so true of where I am.
He's a guest in my reality - I control myself.
We had a good day yesterday, NG kindly dropped me off at work, we met up for lunch, and then went to consult our dietician (NG has serious allergies, and we have quarterly consultations). On the way home, we bumped into a neighbour, got invited to a party next weekend. NG's promotion confirmation came through, and a verrry nice salary increase
Today we plan to do nothing till dinner, which will be with friends as we herald in the New Year. I was just reflecting that the old Slowly would be anxiously running around trying to finish tasks, maybe even worrying that NG might be getting bored. The new Slowly figures if he is bored he can design his own entertainment By doing what feels right to me, for me, I am being a happier person, one who is more fun to have a relationship with.
How did I do against my 2005 goals? Quite well I reckon.
Enjoy today, everyday, with NG + far more harmony at home that I can recall in all the years we have been together + differences are aired, resolved and closed quickly, without the 2-3 day mexican standoffs of the past. Appears we are both more mature in how we handle conflicts + agreed to have more domestic help so we have more time and energy for each other - yay - this is really working out well + paid off our mortgage without any tension about finances + I am less anxious about NG's family, and this seems to be making NG much happier. He went to bat for me in a tough situation, which still amazes me + I still pull a few mysteries, which successfully attracts his curiosity
Focus on improving my health, physical energy, and emotional well being + maintained yoga every week, definitely more supple than a year ago + experimented with herbal supplements and successfully reduced reliance on medication, diabetes well under control + a more detached and rational relationship with my mother, as I accept I cannot change her + managed to keep my weight under 60kg all year - woo hoo + more rest and better diet have helped reduce dark circles under my eyes + handled tough situations at work with new boss, new role, new team (dbing skills helped here more than I ever thought they could)
Bask in the comfort of my social network + found two long lost ex-class mates, re-connecting well + discovered we have wonderful neighbours + enjoying my brother and his tribe's company + found more time for ex-colleagues who are now good friends + obviously had enough quality time on my hands to plan my transition from full time work, to being a student and working part time + got accepted for post grad studies
At times it felt like I was just living in the moment, and not really driving anything specific. However, as I look back, it would appear that quite a lot was accomplished. Slow and steady seems to be doing the trick.
Meeting up at the end of January sounds wonderful. In the meantime, let's close off 2005 in style. I was looking at my list of things that got done, and wow, what a difference a change in attitude makes. Here is something TJ posted on Erik's thread, that kept playing in my mind, it is so true of where I am. 
By doing what feels right to me, for me, I am being a happier person, one who is more fun to have a relationship with. 
