Thanks - do I call you Piglet or Sheila? I do understand what you're saying, I am protecting H's image as well as the image of our marriage. I'm sure people can see we aren't the happy touchy feely couple we used to be, but I know they don't have a clue what is really our life. I need to get over it, but I also know that when H found out about the one person I did talk to - whewieeeee! it wasn't pretty! I will need the emotional and physical support of some people to keep me and all of this going. I am also pretty sure most folks will be shocked enough to hear about any trouble, only time will help them see the truth. And you're very right Sheila, if people know and ask H about it, maybe he has to start facing his own self. I don't want to deface or shame him into anything, but if he has to explain why we can't stay married to real life people, maybe he will see just how stupid this all is.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.