Hanging on/The Long Haul

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opti - I haven't talked to my mom or anyone except one friend, and here on the www. I haven't wanted to get too many people involved or let the cat out of the bag, hoping that it wouldn't have to be front page news and that would make it even worse to try and save this mess. I love my mom, but it would consume her (as it does me) and I would not get a minute of relief once she knew. The same thing sort of happened with the friend I talked about, not a day went by that it wouldn't come up and she'd grill me about it, and finally I just said I can't keep letting it take up every minute of every day, I need a break. She got pretty offended and it's never been the same again. But I may be getting to the point where keeping quiet isn't an option, but I sure don't want to dump it on mom or whoever quite now.

Becca, need another on line friend? You too opti?

Lot's of snow tonight, makes things harder to do outside. But I did ride for a bit tonight since the temps aren't sub zero anymore. I rode inside for a while, then I was just heading out for my romantic ride in the blizzard with myself when H walked in the arena. Sure caught me by surprise, and I said HI. I asked if he wanted to see the slide marks we (my horse and me) made (funny but not if you don't know about reining) so he looked, and then offered some suggestions and watched what I was doing. Felt good. Then I rode and H walked out and we moved some livestock between pens and fed more hay (deep snow, feed more now). Just before we came in we shoveled in front of the house. The new dog we got in October still wonders about snow, and H made a comment about him chasing birds. I didn't even think, but I said 'yeah, I figure he'll be our bird deterrant next summer.' Oops, I wish I could have hit recall. Dead silence except for the scraping shovels.

Here is a weirdy - the cell phone bill came in the mail today. Now, for anyone that's been following along for months and months knows that H miraculously happens to get the mail once a month on the day the cell phone bill comes. There's been twice I can think of that he's missed it, and today is #2. No, I didn't open it. You can all send me congratulations, thank you.