News - not good or bad, just news. Ordered another latch for the broken one, they will send a call tag to pick up the other one and reimburse me. The company does not take my brand of credit card, so to avoid COD charges again, I called H to ask for his credit card number. He answered the phone and said sure and gave me his number. I really debated on this before calling to ask for his help, but I decided it was in 'our' best interest for a number of reasons. Then, I almost brought up about the tractor tire, to ask if he had done anything with it, but I stopped before I got too much out and just said thanks, and goodbye. In a minute, H called back but I was on the phone from work and couldn't answer. He called the work number and left a message for me to call him back. He said he forgot to ask if I would pick up the tractor tire. He got it off and dropped it off for repair, and asked if I would pick it up. Yup, I can do that.

I've been thinking a lot about changes, and what changes I have made in myself. It's a complicated list, should it be that hard? Basically, I am the same person I was but I'm not either. geez, can't anything be simple? I also know that even though I have felt much hurt and pain from my H, I am still afraid of doing things that I think or know will hurt him. I have plenty of thoughts about it, like as stupid as I was last week, but when it comes right down to it I can't carry thru with my actions.

Live your life while you are still living.
Riding the trail less traveled.