Ladies....you are very very right and I am hearing you loud and clear. I am honestly ashamed that I feel this way. I feel so lonely.

One thing that has kept me strong in not acting on this is..I will picture my children and think to myself how could they have any respect for me if I did something like that.


He has been a little more loving I guess. But then I think I want something major to happen something big. Something concrete like some good communication. I don't see that then I start backing way off and act cold and try to distant myself. Maybe if I could learn to be patient and maybe take notice of the small things. I am so not a patient person so I do realize my faults in this.LOL