Cally, I'm not saying that I was never tempted to have an affair. Hell yes I was. And I *craved* validation, just as you do.
But I never got started on the slippery slope of trying to justify it, cause it's not right no matter how you slice it. Leave if you must, but don't tarnish your OWN reputation because H won't work with you.
In addition to that, if I had ever told H that he could either step up to the plate or I'd have an affair, he would have told me to f*ck off, in no uncertain terms. That is a horrible thing to do/say, and it has nothing to do with my husband responding to me. Nothing good can ever come from a threat like that, kwim?
I get what you're saying about not wanting to divorce but, believe me, God hates adultery just as much so your logic is getting a little fuzzy.
I know your mind is jumbled up right now; I'm just encouraging you to do the right thing so that you are able to hold your head high down the road.
