Quote: I wonder if you are not a little bit scared in life
definitly.
So now you are stuck in your little self imposed shell, desperately trying to hang on to the only loved you’ve experienced.
absolutely.
That's good advice you've given me. Keep pushing outwards. Each time I do so, it does seem to work out. I learn new things and find that I am wanted. I also enjoy myself.
Quote: Aren’t you being dependent on him for who you are? I know you know enough to see the danger in this, and that instead you should fill these needs within yourself by yourself first.
You're right about this. But then sometimes I get tired and I just want a hug from someone who knows me even if they are an a** and I just want to snuggle and I just want to knwo that there is someone there for me.
I keep pushing outward and it does worka nd it does help. I find though that my body actually aches from lack of touch.
Quote: I am sure there are many men out there who can give you the love you need if you let them have a chance.
I was thinking about this earlier and I faced myself and thought. Yeah, I guess I don't really believe I will get this. I know it exists and it's out there. But I've never had it.
Um, my counselor - psychotherapist. She likes for me to hate my mom and ...no jK the biggest help that she has been is speaking of the sense of self which you also brought up.
I am working on this. I really am. I work so hard, that I just want a break. I just a week of love that I can count on.
Ideally you create your sense of self as a child with parents who do this for you.
I read on here some people whose spouses don't like to kiss, let alone make love. It's totally ridiculous to me. I would love to have a spouse that wanted to kiss me and hold me.
And then my SO who is totally a cold person gets so many people wanting to be around him and hug him and have relationships with him.
He puts forth very little effort.
It seems like the only way to have people want you is for you to not want them.
Thank you Cobra. You decribed my struggle in a nutshell. and th solution as well. Just keep reaching outward. Thank you.
