"You need to recognize what you did and give yourself a pat on the back for being honest....I suspect you don't do that very often."

Do you mean I am not honest very often or I don't pat myself on the back very often? I know what you mean. I did feel like a very heavy weight was lifted yesterday. Unfortunatly, some other weights took its place.

"I believe you do change into this because you want to....but yes, it does take time and effort. It also takes looking at yourself in the mirror everyday and seeing the worthwhile valuable person that you are. You may not see that person everyday, you may not feel like that person everyday....but you need to remind yourself that you are that person, every day."

I did misstate my point. You are right, people can and do change if they desire to. What I meant was exactly what you said. It doesn't just happen instantaneously. I do need to get back to my self-esteem exercises. I have slipped up on them recently.

"She may not trust that change for quite some time, and in all honesty....she may not trust you for quite some time"

Both difficult things to swallow, but true. The odd thing is that I think I probably trust myself less than anybody, which I'm sure is yet another symptom of my self-esteem problems.

Thanks again GEL

"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"

Inertia Creeps by Massive Attack