"So don’t beat yourself up over this. This is nothing to gain in doing so."
Agreed. Trying to internalize it.
"If you’ve truly come clean (and you better be sure you have this time, there won’t be another chance!), then there is only one direction to go and that is up."
Again, the only thing that is left is details, i.e. exact words that were said, etc. I don't think it would be productive to go through all that though, do you?
"One bright side to all this is that I recall she seemed to suspect you were not truly sincere in your earlier apology. It turns out she was right. This is her karma. She now got the additional pain she was looking for, so maybe she can put that to rest. Don’t discount her part in this."
Interesting possibility. One of the things I would like the W to hear (maybe this is wrong, if so someone tell me) is the C admitting that she told me to not tell about the physical side. Granted, it was just advice from a C, but maybe she will realize I wasn't acting from some deep desire to hide it from her.
"Stop following your emotions. You are logical, you can think things through if you put yourself to it, but you don’t let yourself do this."
Part of that is the guilt clouding my judgement too. Like I said ealier, I think excessive guilt can cause you to lower your standards for yourself. If you expect yourself to do bad things, you will.
"You are being your own worst enemy."
Agreed. Wholeheartedly. But the bad thing is I can feel the excessive guilt rising up when I agree with you.
"Sorry if all this doesn't sound too supportive, but I mean it that way."
It is supportive, thanks.
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
