"remember, we are allowed to make mistakes along this journey called life"
You are right, thinking about that does help with the guilt issues. I am not Hitler in a room full of Mother Theresas like my guilt tries to tell me I am.
"takes a big man to own up to them and reset his course."
That's me. Big anyway.
"You have such a good grasp of your issues and are now receiving the help you need...staying in this direction will bring about good, in time."
I do feel like I have a better grasp on things now than I did when the depression and guilt really set in back during the EA. Although I do have a lot of (probably uneccessary) worry running through my head, I don't have that ultimate despair that plagued me for several months earlier this year.
"Remember, you can't control W's actions, only your own, and what will be will be"
Hard words to live by, but necessary.
"you are allowed to have needs"
I do have to remember that and not let my guilt convince me otherwise. It is so easy to feel like I don't deserve affection because of what I have done. But the funny thing is, that would actually be unfair to my wife. If I were to presume that she never wants me again, then I can never present to her that warm, welcoming person that she will need if she ever does drop the issue and decide to move on. So I would be dooming her to a life of no affection as well.
I know the right things, I've just got to make them my thoughts and not the other stuff. It is a battle for sure.
Thanks IHJ
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
