"Deep down W now knows that you are attractive to other women and she may in future have to compete to keep you."
I guess the question is, is that a good thing for me to want her to know or think about? I mean, her being such an extreme conflict avoider, could she resort to thinking that I am wanting something else other than her, so she can never be good enough for me. How can I help her be sure that I truly want her other than just flat out telling her (but she might not believe me at this stage)?
"If I were you I wouldn't do any more begging for forgiveness. You've said you're sorry - that's enough."
I agree, I am past that stage.
"Sort yourself out and move forward."
Here is the hard part. I am now fighting depression, which has that nasty side effect of making everything seem dreary. Things that just a few days ago I would have loved to have time to do, now have no thrill for me. The only things I have a desire for are being with people. I want that to be the W, but I know she probably needs some space right now. I also don't want to go hang out with the guys too much either, as that might fuel some suspicion. What I would love most of all right now is just some tidbit, some sign, some information, that would make me feel secure that we can move forward and beyond this. I know I need to be patient, but its hard.
"If Bube can do it SD can do it and if SD can do it chromo can do it."
Don't mean to sound harsh, but have you both "done it?" Didn't you recently have a thread about giving up, and didn't Z-Bube have something similar? I'm not trying to brow beat you, I appreciate the pep talk for sure. I guess I'm just in a CeMar-hole right now (not trying to offend CeMar, just illustrate) looking for light at the end of the tunnel. I do appreciate your words.
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
