Hang in there chromoglob, You had an A that was the same as mine - no LM but plenty of EC. You don't have to fill yourself with guilt over it because physically at least you were faithful. Deep down W now knows that you are attractive to other women and she may in future have to compete to keep you. That's not such a bad position to be in. If I were you I wouldn't do any more begging for forgiveness. You've said you're sorry - that's enough. Get over OW - she's history. Sort yourself out and move forward. There's a good chance W will come with you. SD - If Bube can do it SD can do it and if SD can do it chromo can do it.