Your nearness to your XW and your kids is a double-edged sword, isn't it. I have somewhat frequent contact as well. Sounds like you have a patient attitude about your sitch, which you will need. What are you doing to improve or grow?
I've noticed that guys in particular are amazed by what can happen when they start to truly invest in themselves. Although what happens to the XW is a different matter, it is not unrelated, as she will notice your positive changes. Perhaps reacting with anger, but perhaps with some regrets and reconsiderations as well.
