Sara trys to figure things out

[WCW]

I've been where you are, probably still am in quite a few ways. What I've been doing in the recent months is working a little more on each piece of my life, trying to put it back in a perspective that gives me something to be happy about. You know what? It’s been working! What are you doing to bring pieces to your life? A little happiness goes a long way in taking over ‘act as if’.

I know our communication is horrible and I fear bringing anything R up for fear of H taking that opportunity to say again that he does not love me and I don't want to hear that.

AAWWWGGGGG!!! I spent months with that exact same feeling!! I suggest start thinking about what you want to accomplish by talking with your H. Carefully start choosing your words so that they sound positive, sort of like training yourself. I just had our first R talk with H in months, I don't know if I get an 'attagirl' for doing it right, but IMO it was one of our best talks ever, even if it wasn't the results I was hoping to find. But for me, knowing became more important than limbo.

Take care of you, SaraSic.