Sara trys to figure things out

[NNP1965]

Well I am so bummed that my previous post is gone.

Mainly what it said was that I had not come here in quite a while after being told that these problems are all in my head or my fault.

However I realized that is not true. I am doing everything I can to make my marriage strong, just like everyone else here given the opportunity.

I am not the one who wants to run away whenever he feels "unhappy". I am not the one who carried on an internet affair while away from my wife and kids for 6 months (I have no idea how long the EA lasted, it could have been started before he left even). I am not the one who goes to an online gaming site and pretends to be a single man all the while pretending that everything is as it should be to his wife.

But I am the one who will do whatever it takes to make sure this marriage is strong and happy.

It occurs to me as I typed that... maybe my H is just acting "as if".