Sara trys to figure things out

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I think it is time for me to admit that I am married to a man that has no love or respect for me. I honestly think he is here only because he is too afraid to leave and deal with the consequences.

Truth be known he has little or no interest in any relationship that requires something from him. Not even with our boys.

I called him at work this morning to give him some happy news. I was being playful and he was very short with me. It hurt my feelings and I could not hide that my voice was cracking, I tried to hurry and get off the phone. I quickly said good bye and before I could even hang up he slammed his phone down.

He has not called or emailed me. I am sure he is thinking why do I have to put up with this emotional woman. I have the feeling that tonight is going to be some big blow up, that or he will come home and act as if nothing at all happened. I don't know which would be worse.

...and all this because I got a nice big surprise bonus at work today.