Sara trys to figure things out

[NNP1965]

To set your mind at ease, NM, no he is not looking at anything that would be deemed illegal. But certainly things that I find objectionable.

To tell you guys the truth I am a little uncomfortable talking about H on this board in this way. I know it is probably healthy for me to have somewhere to vent, but it feels disrespectful to tell his/our secrets. Something I would never do IRL.

...and as far as him not doing things, well now that I think about it, long ago I kind of quit expecting him to do things for me really. How sad is that? For instance, he is a darn good mechanic, but my oil seldom gets changed unless I take it somewhere. He is a heck of a handyman, but there is a piece of siding that blew off our house last Easter and it still has not been replaced. Oh my I could go on and on....

Last night I was really sick, so I went to bed as soon as I got home from work. Now this is something that never ever happens. He came upstairs to see me when he got home and said not to worry about anything. Which was nice, but he did not take care of anything that I would have if I was up. He did not fix any real dinner (S10 had a bowl of cereal, S11 had a lunch meat sandwich, that they fixed themselves). Never once did H come ask me if I needed a drink or anything.

He could have done the dishes, or picked up a little. He didn't even get the coffee pot set up for this morning.

Then I got up this morning and was moving slow, so I called my boss to say I would be a little late. H saw this as an opportunity for him to go to work early and me to take the boys to school. Making me that much later.

I know that I need to be able to bring these things up in a way as not to antagonize, but I just don't know how. When I try, H takes it all wrong.

Ugh, please forgive my ramblings, I think I am still in a Nyquil induced fog.