NM suggested I post specific things I want to work on and I think that is a good idea. Atleast it's a start, right?
So here goes.
Problems:
H does not tell me he loves me. So I am unable to say it to him even though I want to. The couple of times I have said it in the past several months there has only been silence from him.
H does not make love to me. We have sex quite often, but it is not the same.
H is dishonest about what he does online. Sometimes he closes windows when I come in the room and I can see from the history that he looks at porn and sometimes looks for the woman from last year.
H seems to be slowly spending more and more time on his computer away from the family.
Positives:
H seldom misses an opportunity to hug me.
H has been initiating a good night kiss after we are in bed but before we fall asleep.
H is usually open to anything that I initiate, be it snuggling or more.
H discusses things with me before he does them.
H is not guarding his cell phone like he used to. Early last year he always had it turned off while at home and never allowed it out of his possesion.
I know I am not doing a very good job of relating our problems. I guess that is because I have a hard time figuring out what they are.
If nothing else I think I will use this new thread to journal. Maybe that will help me figure things out and as always I would welcome and input.
Me 54 DS19 and DS17 Married 06/1989 Divorced 01/2011
