Well quick note. I met up with my couin last night. I had seen him earlier in the day and he invited me to meet he and his friends at this restaurant lounge. I forced myself to go and it passed the time; but it was hard, as I did have a good time; but as usual my mind was elsewhere. I am trying to do other stuff and GAL; but I haven't found my niche yet. It also is very hardto let go of her even if she has somewhat.
I guess I try and stay positive that something will break; but I don't know
What did the Clash say? "Should I stay or should I go?" I just wonder if it is the newness of the breakup with the OM or if she just doesn't care enough; but knew I would be there for her?
Frank
P.S. Never heard back from this acquaintance I know about going to the Billy Joel concert tomorrow night. All I want to do is not waste the tickets; but like I said before I have noone to go with. Another thing is that my X gets to have get togethers with common friends we have; because of her having the kids most of the time and having a house to entertain in, even though she has no job!!! I love her; but I resent her sometimes when she seems to get away with the OM thing and just gets to move on with life like it never happened. Meanwhile I try and do the right things and I lose alot.
