On top of all the rest, I am unpacking stuff from storage and I come across old pics of happier times and I came across a card taht came with flowers she sent me way back Quote: "Thank you for putting up with me this week.
Love, G"
Sometimes I feel like if she could just step back like I have and see some of these things, that they might make a difference; but I can't push it as right now if there is even a possibility, it will only push her away.
Sometimes I wish I could just disappear or drown my sorrows in alcohol; but I am smart enough to know that doesn't help. I guess I just want some way to dull the pain so that I can give her space and also so that if it doesn't ever work out, that it will hurt less; but I know that isn't how it goes. It's all or nothing!!!
